Christmas Wishes

I want to see twinkles and sparkles and snowflakes.

I want to smell fir trees and clove and peppermint.

I want to hear Nat and Ella and Bing.

I want to taste hot cocoa and Danish butter cookies and akvavit.

I want to feel crushed velvet and filbert nutshells and warm fuzzy blankets.


To me, the Christmas Experience feels like falling in love. When I see beautiful Christmas decorations or hear my favorite carols, I am instantly euphoric—so much so that I usually begin to cry.

I wish it wasn't so commercialized and I wish it was religion-neutral* and I wish it wasn't such a sad time for so many people.

The strange thing is... I don't know why I've always loved Christmas so much. To me, it's never been about the presents (of course, I don't refuse them if they are offered, but that goes for any time of year ;) ) and it's certainly never been about Baby Jesus and it's never really been about Santa Claus either (although I do have a soft spot for Santa Mouse).

One of my favorite Christmastime memories is of sneaking over to the tree when everyone else was asleep, turning on the twinkle-lights, finding my favorite ornament (it was shimmery light blue and had the words "O Come All Ye Faithful" on it), and looking at it while softly singing carols in the glow of the blinking, colored lights.


What part(s) of Christmas do you love?
Or, if you don't like Christmas, what makes YOU feel this happy?



*Yes, I realize it is named after Jesus Christ and that there are other, older names for it; Christmas is just the name I'm used to and it would feel weird to call it anything but.

Video project details, etc.

I am importing the photos/videos from my video project and it is taking forever. I guess I never talked about it in more detail like I said I would.

So!

It is a video with a theme of accepting yourself and not conforming to other people's standards of beauty. It begins with me looking unsatisfied with what I see in the mirror. I get a makeover. I go out to a bar hoping to be happy now that I am looking the ways and doing the things society says I should.

(Hey, they finished importing!)

Ahem. So I go to this bar and I expect to fit in and feel comfortable, but I find that I am actually WAY MORE uncomfortable than I was just being myself. So I go home, take down the fancy hair, wash off the makeup, and take off the sexy dress and I am left with me, which I now realize is the only thing I want to be, and I am happy. The end.

The video will be set to this song, and there will be no other audio.

This is gonna take forever to edit, but I think it'll be worth it. :)

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I was at World Market the other day and they had Christmas decorations out, yay! I know most people hate seeing that stuff out already, but since I start feeling Christmassy in September, I was really excited. Like, twirling-around-in-the-store-squealing excited.

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For the makeover for my video project, I painted my nails. Now I can't stop staring at them while giving massage. The sparkles are mesmerizing...

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Still coughing a bit. Looking forward to more cupping and acupuncture on Wednesday. I wonder if I'll bleed through the lung points during cupping again. That was so cool.

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The other day I was singing (again) and I sang A House Is Not A Home (the glee version, of course) and hit all the notes for the first time! Go me! What was I saying about small victories?