High emotion.
I don't even remember what I was originally planning on writing about today...
Maybe the fact that I'm definitely on the road to health?
I certainly wasn't planning on writing about old memories coming back to torment me in disgusting, traumatic detail.
I'm sure I also wasn't planning to write about how I felt good about an action at first and mere hours later was hating myself (which these days = hitting myself) for fear and dread of bad consequences. It turned out ok, I guess; too bad I couldn't just keep a level head so now my thighs have to pay for it. You know what? I still feel good about the action. It was something I wanted to do, and I believe it had the effect I was hoping for. So yeah.
I'm tired, and my brain is a wreck. I need less stress and more clarity, and I need it now. I've made a couple changes that have helped, but it isn't enough. At this point it seems like anything I could do that would help with my current stress would just cause stress of a different variety.
THE GOOD:
1. I am definitely on the road to health; I got acupuncture and cupping again on Wednesday and since then, my sinuses have been mercifully clear and I'm now coughing up white/clear gunk from my lungs instead of brown/green gunk. Also, my energy level is up and I'm breathing a lot more easily.
2. Today I was thinking about nicknames (nice ones, not mean ones) and it made me smile really big.
Hmm. Only two. Oh well.
Emo-Martha, signing off.
Showing posts with label Acupuncture. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Acupuncture. Show all posts
Thursday, October 11, 2012
Saturday, October 6, 2012
Video project details, etc.
I am importing the photos/videos from my video project and it is taking forever. I guess I never talked about it in more detail like I said I would.
So!
It is a video with a theme of accepting yourself and not conforming to other people's standards of beauty. It begins with me looking unsatisfied with what I see in the mirror. I get a makeover. I go out to a bar hoping to be happy now that I am looking the ways and doing the things society says I should.
(Hey, they finished importing!)
Ahem. So I go to this bar and I expect to fit in and feel comfortable, but I find that I am actually WAY MORE uncomfortable than I was just being myself. So I go home, take down the fancy hair, wash off the makeup, and take off the sexy dress and I am left with me, which I now realize is the only thing I want to be, and I am happy. The end.
The video will be set to this song, and there will be no other audio.
This is gonna take forever to edit, but I think it'll be worth it. :)
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I was at World Market the other day and they had Christmas decorations out, yay! I know most people hate seeing that stuff out already, but since I start feeling Christmassy in September, I was really excited. Like, twirling-around-in-the-store-squealing excited.
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For the makeover for my video project, I painted my nails. Now I can't stop staring at them while giving massage. The sparkles are mesmerizing...
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Still coughing a bit. Looking forward to more cupping and acupuncture on Wednesday. I wonder if I'll bleed through the lung points during cupping again. That was so cool.
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The other day I was singing (again) and I sang A House Is Not A Home (the glee version, of course) and hit all the notes for the first time! Go me! What was I saying about small victories?
So!
It is a video with a theme of accepting yourself and not conforming to other people's standards of beauty. It begins with me looking unsatisfied with what I see in the mirror. I get a makeover. I go out to a bar hoping to be happy now that I am looking the ways and doing the things society says I should.
(Hey, they finished importing!)
Ahem. So I go to this bar and I expect to fit in and feel comfortable, but I find that I am actually WAY MORE uncomfortable than I was just being myself. So I go home, take down the fancy hair, wash off the makeup, and take off the sexy dress and I am left with me, which I now realize is the only thing I want to be, and I am happy. The end.
The video will be set to this song, and there will be no other audio.
This is gonna take forever to edit, but I think it'll be worth it. :)
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I was at World Market the other day and they had Christmas decorations out, yay! I know most people hate seeing that stuff out already, but since I start feeling Christmassy in September, I was really excited. Like, twirling-around-in-the-store-squealing excited.
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For the makeover for my video project, I painted my nails. Now I can't stop staring at them while giving massage. The sparkles are mesmerizing...
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Still coughing a bit. Looking forward to more cupping and acupuncture on Wednesday. I wonder if I'll bleed through the lung points during cupping again. That was so cool.
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The other day I was singing (again) and I sang A House Is Not A Home (the glee version, of course) and hit all the notes for the first time! Go me! What was I saying about small victories?
Wednesday, October 3, 2012
POW!
Today I got acupuncture and cupping. It was awesome. I get more next week.
I never thought I'd be paying someone to stick me with needles. Or give me hickeys without the fun bonus of making out, for that matter...
PLUG Anyway, if you want a good acupuncturist, go to Almine Barton at Healing Response Acupuncture & Integrative Medicine. /PLUG
Tomorrow I'm going to make essentially a music video, except it won't be me singing. I'm excited anyway, though. It's something I've been thinking about for a while, and I hope it turns out as well as I've been imagining. I'll write more about that tomorrow.
Also, today I got balls.*
Oh! Oh! ALSO, today I picked up a manuscript I'm proofreading for a friend. I'm really excited. I love proofreading. I'm such a nerd. I even got a new pen with pretty ink for it.
*Inside joke, sorry. I'll try not to do that too much. ;)
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